Why on days as such, do the thoughts slowly creep in?
I always end up alone, to slowly let them take control.
I want to so much to be gone.
I feel trapped, that everything is smothering me.
I want to just drive away, to be any where but here.
I then realize I have no where to escape to.
I begin to feel even more trapped, more smothered.
My mind drifts off to the blood I could shed.
My life I could give up.
Would they even care?
I know they love me, but if they knew what creeps into my mind, I fear they would banish me.
Maybe thats all I want.
Freedom. Peace. Life.
My life, what have I done.
How could I let these thoughts creep i
I can not admit it
I know, but the knowledge I refuse
Your my friend
And always will be
Were both afraid
Your different then any of my friends before
Your all I need but nothing I want
I can not admit it
This feeling is different then any before
I am confused
I hold back
I want to tell you
But I refuse to acknowledge
The fact that I Love You
Have you met my friend Pain?
I personally know her very well.
She was over last night.
She stood by my side when no one else would.
We pondered on my past, then present, and talked if I would have a future.
Talking of the future got me to dreaming.
I dreamt of Pain leaving.
But like always I cant let her go.
If you met Pain, you should meet Sorrow.
I know her just as well as I know Pain.
Sorrow is by my side during the day.
She helps me to laugh a little louder.
And also smile a bit more.
I asked her to leave but she stayed.
My friends Pain and Sorrow will be glad to introduce you to my final friend, Death.
I met death fo
No one doesn't really understand. To tell the truth, I don't really understand. As he held me in his arms that night, he told me, "Please don't do it ever again. For me?" I felt so content that I agreed, even though something inside me smirked. Do you think he understands or even cares why I do what I do. But it's another night . . . alone . . . and my mind is trapped inside it's self. Just once more I say, what could it hurt. I know he doesn't really care, so why should I bother not to for him. I should just give up . . . the one thing he asked me not to . . . I did. He doesn't understand he doesn't know why . . . I don't even know why. I th
Ive hidden myself away
Im drowning
The pain and regret have filled a broken heart
All the unspoken words make a lonesome pile
I let the music take over
I prayed that this pain would be no more
But it lingers here to remind me
That I have given in
I let go
A reminder all is lost
I pray I shall be free one day
That I shall walk with the living again
Be filled with happiness
I want to cast this mask into the fire
The fire where my past is slowly burning
Until I am unmasked
I will sit in the shadows
Drowning in my own tears
Can you hear it
I thought not
But the sound that you should hear
Is me screaming
Screaming for help
Screaming to escape
Screaming to be heard
No one can hear me
But how can I blame them
Everyone has there own lives own problems
I feel so sick now
I think I will lay down for awhile
No one cares
They dont even see me here
I am just a shadow
I am invisible
They would not miss me
I am to strong to give up
I have a future to live for
I can feel the pain again
The anger is too much
I want this to stop
But it has become too late
I am sorry but I am too weak
A hidden secret
Makes a secret inside its self
Hiding the hurt makes a mess
But denying the mess is far worse
Its a time bomb
Its already set
Already ticking
You want the ticking to stop
By denying it even more
Why deny the truth
Why deny what your life truly is
Why hid who you are
Are you afraid of help
Why hide this secret even more
Or the secret inside it
All it does is grow
It started so innocent
You never thought about touching it
The innocence was raped by anger
Raped by fear
The ticking started with the tears
But the bomb was silent
Others try to stop it
But we buried it to deep
Far from their
How could you break something that is already broken
Havent their dreams already been shattered
Why take all they have left
Why muffle their screams
When their screams already cant be heard
Havent they cried enough
Why should they cry more
Are you blind to see all that is clear
Why cant you see all the pain
The pain in their eyes is all that can be seen
All you seem to be doing is killing them
How can you kill someone that is already dead
I have been lost in my mind
Im beyond the real world
No one knows
Everyone judges without a glance
They ignore the pain in my eyes
They miss the fight Im going through
I want to be held
I want to be far from this
My life is unfolding
My mask is breaking
I try to hid
But you have finally seen
I sit here wishing he knew
But I know he likes her
Not me
He tells me the person he wants
I try not to let him
But he wont see the hurt in my eyes
He just wont stop
Why doesnt he see it hurts
Why does he always do this to me
Im not good enough
He always sees something wrong with me
He likes her better
I should end this
But I love him
I will try to be her
Maybe then he will love me
SAM
By Kasey S. Brown
Setting: In an office of a house. There are many books lying around and there are several book cases. In the left top corner of the stage is a big over stuffed chair. In the top right corner there is a floor lamp and a desk. The desk is covered in books and papers. The room is neat except for the desk and books by the chair.
Sam
God lied!
Kristen
What do you mean?
Sam
God lied.
Kristen
Why?
Sam
Thats not important.
Kristen
What?
Sam
Shhh, Im thinking. (Looking at papers lying out on a desk.) This is it! I have found it!
Kristen
Found what . . .
Sam
Wait. (Pause.) This isnt it! (Start
Setting: A living room with a bed room on each side. Doesnt matter how they are set up as long as you can tell that one bedroom is Marvins and the other bedroom is Saras.
Sara
(Comes into living room from her bedroom crying.) Jordo (Sob.) is breaking (Sob.) up with (Sob.) me!
Marvin
Good finally he has found his brain.
Sara
(Stops crying.)Shut up!
Marvin
Poor drama queen, nobody likes you, so why dont you just go eat worms.
Joe
Dont you
Kids cartoons now a day are so hilarious. I was watching Dora the other day and holly cow can we repeat things anymore? Bridge, rock, mountain, bridge, rock, mountain, say it again, bridge, rock, mountain, one more time, bridge, rock, mountain, just a few more times. Wait doesnt that confuse the kids with numbers? They need to think about these things. These kids are going to go to school and be working with numbers and the kids will just know the number few, the number that never ends.
Isnt Dora supposed to be teaching kids a little Spanish? Then why do they count in English most of the time? Then they also have the talki
MY HEART IS FRAGILE, IT BREAKS WITH EASE . . .
I SOB WITH SORROW, THE TEARS THEY NEVER COME . . .
MY HEART IS BREAKING, IT SPLITS IN TWO . . .
I SEE AN EMPTY FUTURE
I LOVED YOU AND IT BROUGHT PAIN
I ACHE TO KNOW YOU DO NOT SEE
I LOVED WHO I WAS WITH YOU, BUT NOW THAT MUST BE GONE . . .
WHY OH HEART HAVE YOU FOILED ME
TRAP ME IN A PIT OF MY OWN BLOOD
MY HEART THEN CRIES OUT OH LOVE
I WAIT BUT NO ONE COMES
AN ANGEL YOU WERE BUT A DEVIL YOU BECOME
WHAT HAVE I DONE
NO ONE IS OUT THERE FOR THY
I MUST DIE SO THEY MAY SEE
WHAT A BROKEN HEART IS . . .
WHAT NO TEARS MEAN . . .
I stood up there that day,
I gave you my heart, my soul, and everything.
All you gave me was heartache.
You took what I gave you and bruised it,
It didnt mean anything to you.
Do you bruise me because I love you?
Im sorry I ever met you,
Im sorry I ever gave you my heart,
Im sorry I love you.
I think of leaving,
I think of dying,
I think of anyway to get away.
I finally get the strength I need.
I run to the bedroom and grab the gun,
I go to were I left you.
I aim it at your heart.
All the bruises arise,
They turn on you.
As Im ready to pull the trigger,
I remember what you gave me before I said
You took me that night and killed me
You ripped out my heart
Took my identity
Shredded my life like it was nothing
You turned me into a beast
Unable to love
Unable to dream
Unable to scream
Why, why did you do it
Why did you kill me
Im worth nothing now
Im the one in the corner crying
Im the one in fear when I walk out the door
Im the one you raped
The pain I held into long
The anger I kept hidden
The words I never said are to much
I should have said something
I should have stayed in sight
I should have yelled the pain I felt
Ive forgiven
Ive taken it back
Ive felt the greatest anger
How dare you say what you did
How dare you scar my life this way
How dare I sit back and let it happen
The happiness you took
The pain you gave
The secret I had was all because of you
Happiness will never take the scars away
Im sick of letting your words control me
Letting them pile under my scars
Only to help it burst
Only to let it all poor out
Only to help the
The Pain, The Fear I Try To Hide
I Know If They knew Theyd Hurt Too
I Try Not To Show It
I Try To Hide It
I Try Not To
I Try To
I Try To Forget
I Try To Stop
I Cant
The Pain Is Written On My Arm
It Hurts
It Takes The Pain Away The Fear Away
It Hides Them
It Helps Me Not To Think About It
It Helps Me Heal
This Wont Heal
But The Pain and Fear Will
I Write It Every Day
For Every Pain
For Every Fear
I Wont Show It
I Hide It
Im Scared
Im Alone
I Want To Write
But I Cant
I Have To Stop
I Have To Deal
I Have To Show
Someday I Will
Someday Theyll Know
Theyll Know
Th
You did a wrong
You thought it was fine
You found out otherwise
You were young, disappointed, scared
You couldnt handle it
You couldnt take it
You couldnt understand
Some will choose the best
Others the worst
Killing is what you did
Because you were young
Because you were scared
Because you
Why are you the only reason
What about me
That was my life
That was me you killed
Why didnt I have a say
I could have had everything
I could have been your life
I could have had the life you never did
But no
You killed me
You went that day and said it had to be
Why did they let you do it
Why did they think i
Everyone asks
Everyone knows
Everyone sees
Its the way I have control
Its the sickness of the image
Its from the lies in the mirror
I starve myself from life
I starve myself from happiness
I starve myself for the image
I starve for the truth in the mirror
The noises from my stomach I ignore
The temptation I throw away
The screaming in my head to be the image I give into
The bones you can count
The hurt you can see
The truth in the mirror never will be true
I lie to be the image
I sink lower, sicker then the image
I hurt to be but the image is never seen
Current Residence: Minnesota Favourite genre of music: Rock, Hip Hop, and Christian Favourite photographer: Jim Brandenburg Favourite cartoon character: Tigger :O) Personal Quote: I SOB WITH SORROW, THE TEARS THEY NEVER COME
Favourite Visual Artist
Thomas Kinkade
Favourite Movies
LOTR Trilogy, Movies from the 80's, POTC, and anything with Johnny Depp
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
TDG, Linkin Park, Thousand Foot Krutch, Kids in the Way, Seventh Day Slumber, and basically any rock